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So that's what that bill was for...

Okay, so I didn't forget about the blog, I just pushed it to the side for a bit. Still trying to get over being bummed about leaving Nathan behind in Germany. And the fact that even though I ovulated while I was in Germany (or so I would assume giving the punctuality of my period) my period arrived while I was on the plane coming home. It was not pretty given the fact that I was not prepared for such an early period and I couldn't get to my fresh change of clothes. (Oh yes, it was that bad.)

Other than that, nothing new. Except for this. Bored, lonely, grouchy, mildly depressed (and I do know what it's like to be severely depressed, so don't worry, I'll head to the doctor at the first sign of sleep deprivation and the like), barely fit company for the pets... things are great! Infertility sucks, but it sucks hard when there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. At least when Nathan was here we could pretend that sex would be enough.

I have decided to never, ever again take Clomid. I have taken it twice and didn't appear to ovulate either time (once while charting, once while using OPKs). If anything, my cycle was more irregular than ever while on it. And the migraines are incapacitating. The nausea that comes with the migraines? With that, even if I did ovulate, there is no way Nathan would ever get near me, much less get me pregnant.

The doctor that we saw in December mentioned IUI if nothing happened with Clomid. Of course that was with 3-6 months of Clomid, but I think he'll understand if I tell him there is no way I can take that crap again. I don't care if injectibles are worse, at least they have a higher chance of working. That's all that counts, right?

Other than the regular complaints, Germany was great. The sights were pretty, the food was good, the sex was great... Okay, maybe that's a bit too much information. But it was.

Comments

[Dead Bug]

So sorry the German rendezvous didn't work out. Getting your period on an international flight--simply horrible. What an awful way to end your romantic vacation.

For what it's worth, I didn't get any major side-effects from the injectibles I did for my IUI a couple of months ago, and my RE said "they should be less severe than Clomid". (He seemed to have forgotten that I'd never taken Clomid, so that part was a bit over my head, but now that you've mentioned migraines and nausea it makes more sense.) Hope it works out the same for you, except with throwing in the getting pregnant part.

--Bugs

[Julie]

Of all the drugs I've taken okay, of the legally prescribed drugs I've taken Clomid was the worst. Good for you for putting your foot down. Infertility is miserable enough without migraines and hot flashes to boot.

Thinking of you.

[Milenka]

Welcome back! I've missed you! :-) I remember my Clomid days, and they weren't fun.

[Monique]

I can not only imagine the ultimate suckdom that came with having your period arrive on the way home... on a plane... while hovering thousands of feet above the ground. Sorry you had to go through that. =/

At least the sex was good, no?

[Christina]

Yes, it was. ;)

[Monica]

I'm glad your back!

[maria]

Boy am I behind on reading and commenting. Anyway, just to add my 2 cents, Clomid was the worst of all the drugs I took during our fertility treatments. I was a raging bitch, weepy little mouse, and then a laughing maniac all in the same half hour. I gained weight that did not leave when the cylce was done and I cried inconsolably at least once every single day for about a month after the last pill. We took breaks in between, but all in all we did 10 Clomid cycles (2 of those with IUI). It was FAR worse than anything IVF did to me physically or emotionally.

The injectables were nowhere near as bad. I had none of the emotional problems Clomid gave me. Even though I did get a headache with the injectables, they were only the nagging annoying kind... no migraines. (I was so emotionally messed up on Clomid that I honestly can't remember if it gave me a headache or not.)

One added bonus of the injectables was a massive increase in libido. This was frustrating at best since we were in the middle of IVF and told not to participate in any extracurriculars until the big day. After the big day though... let's just say we made up for lost time. ;)

Basic message: don't let your reaction to Clomid scare you off the injectables. They are a piece of cake in comparison. Good luck!

[Idetrorce]

very interesting, but I don't agree with you
Idetrorce